5-5-2016

I have decided that I will no longer waste my time ranting on Facebook and once again begin to write my thoughts here on e-blogger.  Currently, I am living in Southern California in a house owned by Richard Musil.  It has been almost a year sense I graduated from Library school and received a Master Degree.  I have been cocooning for the last year trying to regain my physical and spiritual health.  I have been concentrating on my mental health.  I hate losing the ability to use logic and think linear.  TO make a long story short the Super Ego = the leviathan.  The leviathan is the modern nation.  I live in the leviathan the United states of America.   I follow "the way".  The greatest teacher of the way is the Christ Jesus. Christ said: with faith you can move mountains.  A modern example of the way would be Martin Luther King Jr (MLK Jr.).  Metaphorically speaking MLK Jr. moved a mountain with his faith in the way.  He put into motion a change in the United States from a segregated society to one being somewhat integrated.  There is a ebb and flow to change in the socio-economic system of any LEVIATHAN.  Bernie Sanders is trying to force the United States down a path of progressivism which ultimately leads to communism or some other fictitious utopian society.  WE have emotion and we feel despair and there is no scientific system that can control human emotion.  It takes one's will to control self in order to function effectively inside the confines of a leviathan.  We have the pharmaceutical industry that desires to curb our emotion allowing us to be shaped by a social engineer for the good of society.    

Everyday struggle

Cracked thoughts
from a torn heart
and broken soul
FALL
on electronic walls
like
a needle prick
from a shot of tar
going into the arm
nothing to get stuck on
it makes you puke,
we all have
dirty little habits
we take to the grave
smoking, drinking, or thinking
take your pick
generating
real and fabricated emotions
in order
to deal
with being alone
in a crowd of smiling faces.
Listening to WHISPERS
from somewhere
beyond the moon
perhaps mars
or even the oversized rock
Pluto
HEAVEN
maybe HELL
cause paranoia
during
MY
Everyday struggle
trying to find a way
in the digital age
to get: sex, drugs and rock "n" roll
without death and taxes...
just have a little fun
but
laughter with the mad hatter
at his coke party
leads to disaster
end up
mumbling to myself
sitting in the park
wearing no clothes
under the sun,
with a twenty two of steel reserve
to strengthen the nerves
to deal with
coming down from
an unnatural high
trying to find a faster way
to make that C.R.E.A.M.E
but no one believes
in the written word
to do to them as you want done to you.
OH LORD!!!
what is a human to do?

Puddle of Water

Madness comes
without warning
a thief in the night
stealing precious pearls
of wisdom.
Reality becomes
obscured,
a reflection 
in a puddle of water
after a pouring rain
right angles
becomes curves
curves falling into lines
A line turns into a point.
Where one million angels
dance on the head of a pin. 
am I alive or dead
I ponder my existence
over coffee and cigarettes
the dirt from the grave
builds up under the finger nails
as I dig deeper
into the despair of being human
teeth began to rot
after singing mantras
to a forgotten God.
Save me Lord
falls of deaf ears
the master of heaven
has gone fishing
as manic depression
captures my soul,
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT
but I do know,
my soul has a hole,
that will never be filled.

I feel like Adam

Daily

in the garden

I sit, I stare,

and

chat with GOD,

I name things:

that is love!!!

that is hate!!!

that is anger!!!

that is Joy!!!

this is loneliness.

paradise is purgatory.

no rhyme or reason

to the dance of life.

We shuffle like zombies.

looking for brains,

someone has to have the answer?

Dusty books digitized.

for prying eyes

searching for answers

to questions with no lessons.

How do I get off of earth alive?

Seperation between Church and State

Is there a relationship between the rise of education among the population and lack of faith in Christianity and /or religion in general. I can not see the wind but I know it is there. This is applicable to the state and to GOD. I can not see, touch, taste, smell, hear a state but the media portrays the United States like a person. Does the United States submit to the will of God? It is printed on the back of a dollar bill IN GOD WE TRUST?

I will say a state is a levithian. God plays with levithans. Since, the United States does exist it is the will of GOD; Providence. I use the term levithan from Thomas Hobbes describing the state under a monarchy. However, the United States is on a planet with other states. Are they all willed by GOD?

Mary Rowlandson wondered how GOD can shine on the Native Americans and allowed her to be captured by savages. Another JOB ordeal, how does bad things happen to Good people or good things happen for bad people.

I like to think Christianity ushered in a form of government that was not on a planet before, one of equality, the kingdom of heaven. At the time Christ spoke there was no such thing as democracy. We still do not have true democracy, we have representative democracy. Representative democracy is based on an unequal system of slavery and a concept that the masses are ignorant. Thus we have Thomas Jefferson that promoted educating the people to have a good democracy. Do we want true democracy or do we want a state that is a money making empire? (insert real politics here) It is difficult to harvest the seeds of freedom in a state where you are surronded by different ideas of freedom. Thus we have the Law. Which Law is superior the Laws of GOD or the Laws of Humanity.

How do I know what you say is from GOD or just a figment of your own thought? We must use reason to come to an agreement.

Tangent point theory Part 3

Everything touches.

Tangent point theory is a method to look at the world threw parables of Christ to develop a means to apply his teaching to the encouters we have in our everyday life. The way of Christ is not to avoid the punishments of hell or receive the presents from heaven but the truth of the matter of how humans should live among each other based on the will of God.

The tangent point theory attempts to describe the structure of human interaction and methods that are helpful to live the Christian way. We must understand these relationships that we have because everything touches we must try to be courteous to our neighbor.

Everything in the known universe touch on a quantum level making us all neighbors.
"Do unto others as you would do unto yourself." The palm tree in my neighbor yard that must be respected as a life form. However, non-sentient beings need to be sacrificed for the betterment of humanity,but there is a right way and wrong way to sacrifice nature for humanities needs. The pollution on the earth is a testimony to humanity not being neighborly with nature.

God's grace flows through everything. However God's spirit does not. God which is good can not occupy the same space and time as one that is evil. However, one that is evil may embrace the way of Christ and find peace and enjoyment (the kingdom of heaven) during this life.

The relationship of the individual to God is a tangent point; the point that we touch God's grace from the moment of birth (the moment of life is debately). I will argue that there are two realities for an infant: The conciouness formed in the womb and the life outside the womb. A human infant needs Love to survive. God's grace is Love. This Love flows through the mother and into the offspring and flows directly through to the offspring. Here is another relationship: A which is God, B the mother and C the child.

The very first interaction a child has is with the Grace of GOd. The grace of God is Love and the essence of God is unknown. However, from my Christian understanding: Through Christ we recieve the spirit and from this spirt we are comforted by God. Christianity is one of the few religions that offers salvation from the harshness of the world we live in. There is some sort of communitcation process going on with God and a child in the womb. When does a child become burdened with original sin? The actually human communication with God does not happen until birth.

The first relationship a child has in relationship to their mother is submission. The child is 100% dependent on outside forces to survive. What is the method for a parent to interact with an infant. When does a parent discuss the concept of God? What is the proepr method to describe God to a child. Is God explained with fear or is God described as a benevolent being that has humanity in its best interest? or There is no GOd. I do not subscribe to the concept that there is no God.

WHY WE massa

We come into this world
freely born
by GOd
to be captured
by the ways of men
our care free spirits
are weighted down
with the burdens of three generations
beter yet the grandfather clause
is a tire wrapped around our necks
but, WHY WE massa
are we here to see the end of the world?
or is it a new beginning?
The death of Christ
is the birth of western civilization
funny
the death of western civilization
is the birth of Christ.
When the good and plenty
becomes a scarity
watch many Christian knees
hit the ground and offer up pleas
Lord take this burden from me
"WHY WE massa
I keep the LAW"
is it more
I help us to keep the law
the Law being the word
the word being the son
the son being the father
the father being life
life is being love
one with creation.
WHY WE massa, have to be made so frail.