Sunday, October 23, 2022

In the belly of the beast.

 in the belly of the beast

there are no rainbows
eye for an eye
is the order for the day
but there are no shortages
of the holy bibles
where Jesus says "turn the other cheek"
black, wood, or 13 playing a surreal game of politics
grown men grumble because of empty bellies
others cry into pillows because of fear
other scream in pain because of failed suicide attempts
its a mad house of discontent
I laugh...
In the belly of the beast
there are no rainbows.

God is not Dead.

 God is not DEAD!

Quietly contemplating the universe,
I gasp at the silence,
Is there anything out there?
Perhaps a supreme being
championing the rights of miserable men?...
We swear God exists!
Similar to fake news,
A wild rumor on social media
A shout out during a Facebook RANT!
no angels separating the chaff from the wheat
everyone caught in the mosh of impermanence
grasping at straws
building houses on mud flats
praying to God that it wont collapse
but Gravity our master
whips us daily
reminding us we are meant to struggle.
only us fools
see rhyme and reason in a field of chaos.
Look up in the clouds,
It's Jesus, no Mohammed, no Buddha
no its chemtrails choking the life out of our body
so you don't collect that retirement check.
Political parties trying to make 2 + 2 = 5
Up is really down when looking at the stars
there is no direction in the void of space,
religion and priests, or science and scientist
folk shining a light in the dark that grows darker and darker
I still remain calm
In the belly of the beast
and still I claim
through broken pride
smashed dreams
and lost love
God is not dead.
but it really pisses me off.

Thursday, October 13, 2022

3 hiding spaces

 Once upon a time, when I was beginning the path of learning meditation, I bought a book to ponder words of wisdom until I reached a meditative state. The book I purchased was " The clever rabbit has Three Hiding Places" a collection of wisdom from Chinese philosophers. I read the book from cover to cover and used the thoughts in the books as mantras to achieve understanding. I don't remember a thing from the book, but here is something that has stayed with me from that experience.

One morning I was in Golden Hill Park at sunrise starting a day of meditation. I hear and see things most people do not unless I point it out to them. In order to stop "the monkey brains" I would meditate in the morning to clear my mind's eye. Does not work for me.
On this particular morning I was sitting on a park bench cross legged taking in my surroundings. In front of me was a large pine tree, I think. It had to be a least 30 yards high. Squirrels were doing squirrel things at the base of the tree. I closed my eye and was pondering on ideas from the book "The Clever Rabbit has Three Hiding Spaces."
All of a sudden, a rabbit popped its head out from a hole 90 degrees perpendicular to the tree creating a hypothenuse with me. In front of me was the tree with the squirrels and at a 45-degree angle to my left about 20 yards away was the rabbit poking its head out of a hole.
Next thing I see, is the rabbit starts dashing out of his hole straight towards the tree, where the squirrels are doing squirrel things, then ran directly towards me, passed close by me, and ran pass into another hole.
At that moment the most shocking thing happened, a hawk dislodged itself from the top of the trees and dived through the branches and snatched up a squirrel and went back into the canopy with its meal.
I was dumbfounded and could only think, the Clever Rabbit has Three Hiding Spaces.
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Monday, January 17, 2022

Leadership or coonery?


 

 

 


          I first heard that the Martin Luther King Jr Committee (MLKJC) of Fresno was honoring Mayor Jerry Dyer from political activist Richard Gomez from the Green Party.  Gomez was dismayed that the MLKJC would select a former police chief to honor who had a dubious record while standing his watch. At first, I was shocked to hear that the MLKJC was honoring a former police chief during these times of civil unrest between organized groups such as “Black Lives Matter” that finds the police guilty across the country of police brutality against citizens of the United States.  I thought to myself, to follow an idea presented to me in a speech by Malcom X: “The House Negro and the Field Negro,” that some Europeanized African Americans are trying to stop the plantation master “big house” from burning.

 

 

 
         On a personal level, I have no problem with the police. It is a tough job that someone has to do, evil is a reality.  I have immediate family that has served as law enforcement officers.  Moreover, I am a veteran of the United States Navy, I feel we shared the same cause of protecting our fellow citizens from harm.  As a kid, I would literally hurt myself, bumping into furniture in a mad dash to watch the weekly episode of “CHIPs” that has an excellent opening base line.  However, as a member of the African American community there is a general “fear and paranoia” towards the police from a majority of the community throughout the United States.  There was a collective sigh of relief nationally among the African American Community when Dereck Chauvin was convicted of murdering George Floyd.  Justice has finally arrived when the police are being policed for the good of our nation.  I would like to see a change in the relationship between law enforcement and local communities in a positive way not threw rewards and punishments or a zero-sum game.   

          In order to maintain the American caste system dominated by the Western European American Majority, African Americans have been forced into a role of second-class citizenship.  After the American Civil War which 200,000 African Americans joined unions troops to crush the evil confederate empire, slavery was ended in the United States.  The 13th amendment ended slavery and the fourteenth amendment established citizenship in the United States.  African Americans were to receive the full benefits of citizenship after the American Civil War.  However, the elite southern plantation owners did not feel they should be equal to African Americans and began a process to disenfranchise African Americans.  In order to suppress African American rights “Jim Crow Laws” were passed in southern states to segregate European and African American into separate communities.  I find it absurd that during slavery European and African Americans shared the same house and living environment during slavery, but when Africans Americans were no longer slaves European Americans could not stand to be around African Americans.  I will not pursue an argument that makes the claim in order to pay for the cost of the American Civil War, the elite planter class of the south was forgiven by the state and allowed to reclaim the power they had lost in defeat during the American Civil War. 

          Martin Luther King Jr. (MLKJ) was quintessential in trying to end segregation in the United States of America.  If you look around America, you will see that the U.S. is still segregated, and people are working hard to integrate the state.  MLKJ speech “I have a dream” of a peaceful and prosperous world has moved the hearts of millions and led many people to fight peacefully for an integrated society.  Counter to MLKJ concept of nonviolent protest is Malcom X’s belief in black nationalism that championed self-determination and self-defense.

  According to Malcom X in his speech “House Negro and the Field Negro,” African Americans can be divided into two groups the house negro and the field negro.  The house negro lived in the “big house” with the master and would do anything to please the elite plantation owner.  On the other hand, we have the field negro who had no love for the master and his ways because they were forced to work for free under the lash of the whip.   

Malcom X found Martin Luther’s King Jr. stance on nonviolent protest to be foolish when the state sicks dogs and uses water cannons to prevent equality among the citizenries.  Malcom X believed we have the human right to defend ourselves from harm; self-preservation.  Personally, I think Martin Luther King Jr’s non-violent protest is an excellent example of extreme Christian behavior when it comes to the creed: “turn the other check.”  I am Christian but will only turn my check once, then it is on.  Hopefully, I can live a peaceful life. 

 It could be argued, from a Malcom X perspective, that the MLKJC honoring Mayor Jerry Dyer is the act of a house negro trying to save the “big house” from burning, or the MLKJC has “sold out” to the establishment supporting a former police chief when the majority of African Americans fear the police.  Police brutality is a pandemic that plagues people of African descent globally.  The MLKJC honoring a former police chief when justice is finally being served, Derek Chauvin was found guilty of the murder of George Floyd, is similar to a house negro trying to stop a fire from burning down the elite plantation owners “big house.”  The idea of “defund” the police is more of a reality in African American communities rather than honoring one as a former police chief for their service to the community. 

Malcom X’s idea went on to inspire organizations such as the Black Panther Party for Self Defense that was for the benefit of African Americans while Martin Luther King’s ideas have inspired the world to be a raceless community.  Personally, I like MLK jr., but if you fire a gun at me, I will fire one back.  Moreover, I am a direct result of Martin Luther King jr. vison in his speech “I have a dream” I have a diverse heritage and have most of my life lived in a multi-cultural community.  However, I recognize that not all people like a multi-cultural community and prefer to live with people of their own ethnic background.  I don’t support forced integration; I would prefer to live in a community without that jazz and with people who want to associate freely. 

To answer my query, I went straight to the horse’s mouth on Facebook and messaged the MLKJC: “Why are they honoring a former police chief.” I was told he was being honored as mayor and his service to the community.  Moreover, I was given the opportunity to attend the next meeting of the MLKJC and ask my question at the meeting.  I would like to thank Kim Tapscott-Munson for inviting my to the meeting.  I went to the meeting and was impressed by the collection of individuals that had embraced MLK Jr’s philosophy.  I wanted to pick the brain of an individual by the name of Dr. Kapor but there was no time. During the meeting I found out that Mayor Jerry Dyer is not a newcomer to the MLK Jr holiday but has been involved in the African American community for over 20 years.  The MLKJC found it was time to honor Mayor Dyer for his years of public service. 

The MLKJC is what they are, a group of individuals committed to the realization of MLK Jr’s dream of an equal society.  Was this action by the MLKJC rational leadership or coonery?  Leadership is the action of leading a group of people or an organization.  The city of Fresno desires unity in our community among everyone.  Coonery is the action or other behavior, usually on the part of African Americans, used to reinforce and perpetuate commonly held stereotypes about their own community.  For instance, behaving like a house negro qualifies as coonery.  Is the city of Fresno setting an example to emulate by praising the former police chief under the banner of Martin Luther King Jr?  Is this some sort of an olive branch between the African American community and the police force?

Mayor Jerry Dyer is an integrationist.  He is the embodiment of MLK Jr. dream from a European American male perspective.  He wants to see European and African Americans holding hands and living together in harmony.  He desires a happy city where we all get along as citizens.  However, my issue with the ceremony was the lack of a demand for economic opportunity for African Americans.  Martin Luther King Jr. desired economic justice as well as racial justice.  Where is the economic justice for the African American community across the city, state and nation?  What is the point of being able to eat at a lunch counter with you when I can’t afford to buy lunch? Reparations now!