Question of faith

Dubios thoughts
shackle our minds,
Is this real?
Are you kiddn me?
Two fruit trees?
The two for one DEATH PLATE SPECIAL
GOOD, happy shinning people
EVIL, dumb dumb dumb!
our eyes SCREAM:
DON'T OPEN THAT DOOR!
Fig leafs,
snakes are bad,
NOW you tell me about the second tree!
IMMORTALITY.
kick rocks and farm.
Cold blooded murder over sacrifices,
It is the meat!
It is the salad!
HEY!!! WAIT A DAMN MINUTE!
The angel is trying to FUCK my wife.
OOOOOOVVVVHHHHAAAA!!!!!!!!!
THE FLOOD,
leaning tower of babel,
"Good morning gentlemen,
tomorrow morning,
we will be able to touch the sun!"
CRASH
Did GOD just bowl a strike on sin?
A mulititude of
this and that,
he said,
she said,
THIS IS THE LAW!
but?
Jesus says: GOD IS LOVE.
What about the FURIUOS
FURY of the FURHER?
Ruler of the universe!
THE ALL SEEING EYE.
IT? of the Begining "BOOM."
IT? of the END "KABOOM?"
GOD is Love,
for me.
GOD is War,
for Jews
Jesus words causes War,
Jesus words causes Love.
I fail answering the question.
Honestly, I don't care.
I said YES I believe.
I live the life
of
BEING and NON BEING
in the body of Christ.
That wily, very old, holy spirit
the water in the water of the void
moving me here and there.
HOW, WHAT, WHEN, WHY, WHERE,
is my question to my GOD.
It really hurts,
sometimes,
living in my imperfect body.